hack my brain

it must be tough

2023-01-28T17:25:00.000-05:00

it's been a long week. we're headed out tonight to have a bit of fun and some downtime. trish, clip and i are meeting up with a few people. for the most part we can go anywhere and do anything but it's under heavy security from the feds.

the so called leader of this country is in hiding. she and her staff live in hiding to avoid being hurt or killed. ha! ain't that the way it always goes.
i can't imagine being holed up like that. it must be tough.

taking down wall street

2023-01-24T18:38:00.005-05:00

i was at a pretty high level meeting last night. the numbers being thrown around amazed me. i couldn't believe the financial support the civilian army (ca) has. from what i could make out there are some pretty powerful business men putting vast resources into the fight. not just money, but access to information and technology too.

the economic and financial arm of the ca is vast and includes millions of participants. they're not really soldiers and even now no one really knows if someone's actions in this theatre means that they are a participant or just someone taking advantage of the situation. either way they're helping us.

about 6 months before the robbery a lot of people stopped paying their credit card bills and loans. the number of delinquents was a hundred-fold from the month previous. then slowly over the next few months more and more people stopped paying their credit card bills and loans. this alarmed not only the banks but the government at the highest levels.
a full fiscal quarter had gone past with a few million people not paying. the banks had taken a huge hit. most of these people had very large bills with several creditors and they weren't paying.
the banks were in trouble and there was little anyone could do about it. how do you call in a million extra delinquents a month? then the robbery happened. the banks were done. this was a full scale assault on the financial sector. on the corporatocracy.
the economic and financial arm is probably the most important arm of the ca. it seems to have done the most damage.
in a time when the best way to hurt someone is to take their money, military force is less and less effective, but still necessary.

it's obvious now that the leaders of the economic and financial arm of the ca wanted to have the financial sector hurting for a longer period of time before the robbery but the damage was done and it sufficed. the members had what they wanted, huge debts by millions of people with a lot of the debt used to buy things to help the ca. the banks had funded the attacks on themselves and were glad to do so, at the time. sweet irony.

to bring down power, you must first bankrupt. you must sever ties with money. that's what the robbery was about. freezing the finances of a nation.

the day it started

2023-01-22T05:06:00.001-05:00

i was watching tv the morning it started. i'd had a good weekend having finally met up with trish and spending most of it with her. i was trying to get the energy to start some scanning and thought about going out to get coffee first. as i put my shoes on there was news of hacks and attempted hacks on banks all over the country. i remember them saying it must have been a bot because it seemed to happen so quickly and with the precision of a machine. most of the banks were rerouting data and trying to get back up and running. i opened my sock drawer to see if i had any cash so i could pay for my coffee. cash? who has cash? not me. ha!!

i went down to get coffee anyway and scott gave me one no charge. we go back a long way.

when i got home i just watched tv. it was a good enough excuse not to start a 2 to 3 hour scan. updates from the federal news bureau stated the hacks were sophisticated and banks that were hacked were hacked as soon as they were back online and banks that had survived the hacks had their systems banged on millions of times a second rendering them useless anyway. no one could get in to transact.

i got bored and wanted to go down to the coffee shop to get lunch and meet clip to see what or if he knew anything about what was going on.
as i started getting ready around quarter after twelve, the news switched to a more dramatic story.
surveillance drones from around the country had been feeding images of thousands of banks being robbed. all the banks had been robbed at precisely the same time. people walked into banks and pulled out weapons. police and security were called in to each and every bank. it was like every cop and federal security agent in the country was called to a robbery.
when the law showed up and took position outside of the banks civilians out on the streets around the banks, members of what is now the civilian army, took aim and fired on the men and women called in to stop the robberies in progress. thousands... tens of thousands of law enforcement officers were killed. it was not good.

it took most of the day for me to actually realize what had happened. i think the thing that amazed me the most was the organization of such an act. an act that involved tens of thousands of participants. participants that were from our own country. it was only later that i found out that there were millions taking part.
no one knows for sure but most people on both sides of this war believe not one civilian not involved in the robbery (as it has become known) was killed.

the robbery did two things, it initiated the attack on law enforcement and it also made it known that the attack on the economic and financial sector had been real (more on this later).

the war

2023-01-21T19:49:00.001-05:00

it's been a long time since i updated this blog and figured i should start back up again. i've thought about it a few times in the past 6 to 8 months but never got around to it. there were other things more important.

if you haven't heard or been stuck under a rock for the past year, we're at war. it's a civil war here in the US. it started may 16, 2022.
the leaders of the civilian army said they had to start earlier than expected because some of their members started early and were under investigation (remember the attacks in february).
anyway, there's a heavy military presence both in meat space and in cyber space. being a full volunteer and connected could be trouble so i'm doing this blog qwerty from now on.

i'm going to attempt to be a commentator from my unique perspective. i'm a full volunteer working as a commander in the civilian army.
trish (not her real name) was sent to recruit me soon after my last procedure to become a full volunteer. i've had to get up to speed quickly due to the war starting early and because i'm fully wired that has been easy and it's one of the reasons they wanted me. information is uploaded to me whenever i need it and i can be informed of new and changing data almost instantaneously.

the civilian army is quite an army with several arms to it. there's the military arm, the economic and financial arm, the intelligence arm and the underground arm.
the military arm consists mostly of people and vehicles. for a couple of decades people with money have either been buying or funding the purchase of vehicles. you could even buy decommissioned military land, sea, and air craft from not only our country but several of our allies. they were always without weapons but with the right people and the right funding adding weapons was considerably easy. you should see some of the vehicles the civilian army are using. fully functional jets like migs and the old harriers.
the economic and financial arm is complex. too complex to get into here.
the intelligence and the underground arms are self explainitory.

i've abandoned my old legit job of scanning for what i do now - commander and tech advisor.
who knew becoming a full volunteer would automatically qualify me for a position like this?

btw, clip works with me. he hated working for me so he works with me. i trust him 100% and his skepticism and suspicion give me a perspective i don't and can't have. he's invaluable.

what to do?

2022-05-14T08:15:00.000-05:00

wow! i spent most of last week worrying about trish. i couldn't get a hold of her, connect with her or find her. it was driving me nuts. i'm not really sure because we've never really talked about it to confirm it but i'm pretty sure she's my girlfriend. i know, i know, that sounds a bit pathetic.
friday evening i was finally able to connect with her and when i asked where she had been she really didn't have an answer for me. what am i supposed to make of that?
anyway, she came over on saturday and pretty much acted like nothing happened. i asked her again where she was and why she didn't respond to any of my requests for connection or my e-mails. she made up some stuff about work. blech...

on to a new week. it's nice out and i'm going to get most of my scanning done this morning so i can spend the afternoon on a patio with clip.

back to normal, kinda

2022-05-07T08:28:00.000-05:00

well it's back to a normal week after a long week of visiting and a short week of lazing around. i haven't heard from trish all weekend and i think she has her cid turned off 'cause i haven't been able to connect with her.

i was hanging out with clip a lot over the last few days. more than usual. he told me he's thinking about having me repair his cid so he can start using it again. he's really intrigued by the straight to satellite device. he likes that it connects straight to a satellite without a terrestrial link. it'll let him connect with someone with no way of finding out where he is by checking tower id's and ip's.
same old clip. he would still be a fugitive and that would keep him his paranoid self.
i asked him if i repaired his antenna what we would call him? he's clip because he clipped his antenna. will we call him solder? ha!! he didn't laugh.

now i'm bored

2022-05-02T08:18:00.000-05:00

in an effort to catch up on scanning for clients i missed last week i've done the whole week's work in two days. and with alex gone life is back to normal. no rushing around and touring the city.
now what am i going to do?
i'm going over to clip's for the day. he's going out and doing things as normal even though security hasn't let up in weeks. he figures this is just the new security setting and he still thinks something is afoot. i'll bring him coffee and we'll hang out in front of his building in the sun. it's supposed to be sunny and warm today.

back to normal

2022-04-30T08:39:00.000-05:00

alex left yesterday. i can finally relax. don't get me wrong, i liked having him here to visit but you know how it is, there's no time to relax.

i got the straight to satellite device working after a couple of tweaks. it works great! i'm going to make a couple of more for other people.

trish taught alex how to place images in someones mind. he picked it up a lot faster than i did. trish says it was because i was concentrating too hard.

other than some security anomalies this past week it was pretty uneventful. now i've got a lot of work to catch up on. paying clients wanting work done on time.

alex is visiting

2022-04-20T08:47:00.000-05:00

i met alex at the airport last night and brought him to my place to drop his stuff off. he seems a genuinely nice guy. you can never really tell by blogs and e-mail what someone is really like.

we went downtown for a bit and had coffee out on the patio. the weather is so nice. i think it's the start of patio season. alex doesn't know what patio season is. in la it's always patio season.
we met clip and trish and chatted about all kinds of stuff. mostly we chatted about the differences between new york and los angeles.
he seems to think there's more security here. more aerial drone surveillance. clip, trish and i agreed we hardly notice them. unless there are more than one or two in a specific location we're oblivious to them.
"and that's what they want!" clip shouted.
i rolled my eyes and alex partially agreed.

anyway, the next week should be pretty busy showing my guest around town and going out and doing things.
tomorrow i'll hook up his cid to a straight to satellite device and we can take separate buses to test it. i'm pretty excited about it.

a great weekend!

2022-04-17T08:01:00.000-05:00

what a great weekend this was. i got all kinds of work done. i got all the scanning done for my newest client, i finished the straight to satellite device for alex, and i did a cid mod, one that i had never done before and it worked.

i also stayed in saturday night and practiced placing images in trish's mind. i would place a particular image in her mind and she would do the exact same thing back to me to show me i had done it.
it's so weird. it's like hacking into someones mind. you scan their cid for their connection map and place an image at that point in the cid. you could have fun with this with unsuspecting recipients.
this lead to trish showing me more of what's possible. she placed images in places my mind that seemed to take over my thoughts. i seem to have lost all consciousness except for what she was doing to me. it only lasted a minute or two but it felt like it lasted an hour. it was amazing! it was so vivid and so surreal.

i went over to clip's place yesterday. he's getting more paranoid with the heightened security. it doesn't seem to be letting up and he's at a point where he's knows something big is going to happen.
he thinks if he gets stopped by security he'll go straight to detention for sure and he doesn't want that. i don't blame him but i think he's being over cautious.

i'm looking forward to alex coming in a couple of days. i really want to test the straight to satellite device with someone else using one. two way communication without connection to a local antenna would be so cool.

it happened again

2022-04-13T09:08:00.000-05:00

i woke up this morning none the worse for wear thankfully. last time i was hurt pretty bad. i wasn't with anyone and i woke up this morning at my regular time and when i left to go get coffee there were several security guards carrying conventional weapons hanging around the front of my building. security has been high for some time now but they're hanging around right out front.

i've got a lot of work to do today. my newest client has asked me to scan several new servers and delete latent io this weekend. they're paying me extra to get it done by monday.
i'll be doing a cid mod tomorrow and finishing alex's straight to satellite device so it's ready when he gets here next week. so doing some scanning and getting paid for it will work out nice as i will be home all weekend anyway.

clip's decided that he believes there is something big afoot. all the security and extra drones flying above the streets for the past couple of weeks is not for nothing. he's thinks that the powers that be know there's something afoot but don't know for sure what it is. he thinks they're just being extra cautious on all fronts in the event that something does happen. clip thinks it has something to do with an unreported apprehension and interrogation of the 'white guys' that attacked the office of terrorism countermeasures and the intelligence, surveillance and reconnaissance service (isrs).

i did it!

2022-04-09T09:30:00.000-05:00

i placed an image in trish's mind. like i said before i can't tell if i actually did it. i just know because she told me i did. that's so cool!
i think when i was trying before i was concentrating too much. concentrating on the process.

security is still high. i actually saw security use a few (focused energy weapon) for the first time. they used a sound gun to ward off some drunks causing trouble. it was kind of cool to see how they did it. lots of verbal warnings followed by a formation of about 4 or 5 security personnel pointing a sound gun at the drunks. the drunks turned and left immediately. i didn't want to hang around to see if the drunks would come back and i was late to meet clip at his place. he doesn't go out much when security is high.

alex will visit

2022-04-04T08:48:00.000-05:00

i've invited alex out to new york to visit. he'll get a straight to satellite device. it's partly because he wants one and partly because i need a second device somewhere out there to test it. thanks alex.
i did a cid mod yesterday and (maybe coincidentally) the client asked if i knew of anything that did something like the straight to satellite device does. i said 'no' but i'm keeping his name on record for the future.

he'll get to meet clip too. they both agree with the recent elevation in, and strange behaviour of security there's something afoot. security alert status issued by the government is above medium but not high. it has been for at least a week now.

i think i'm getting it

2022-04-02T10:03:00.000-05:00

i've been trying to learn how to place images into the different centers in peoples minds like trish can. it's not easy but i think i get it.
normally when a volunteer connects with another volunteer there's an exchange of information. volunteer one requests a connection and gets a 'yes' or 'no' answer for the request from volunteer two. then there's usually a 'conversation' that takes place through the volunteer's thought processes.
placing an image or feeling in some one's brain is a bit different. it's one way. you have no way of knowing if the connection was received. other than physically looking at the person.
i think that's why it's been so difficult for me to grasp.
i really like her and if i were more paranoid i'd think she was making me like her by hacking my brain. (because i just said that does it make me more paranoid?)

i've got my straight to satellite connection device working. it's really cool. connections seem faster. what's the difference between 1ms and 5ms?

security is still kind of high from the weekend. i'm waiting to find out what clip thinks is going on. he usually tells me what he thinks then finds out what floating around the net. he hasn't said anything yet.

this new client of mine has some really old, really weird stuff sitting on some old servers. i've been busy with work for them deleting all kinds of junk io. every once in a while i'll look at some of it. weird.

more security

2022-03-31T11:33:00.000-05:00

trish and i just got back from breakfast and there was security everywhere. they're still there. maybe clip is rubbing off on me but it seemed like a surveillance drone was following us. it gave me the creeps.
i don't know what's going on but we're going to head over to clip's to see how he's doing.

trish wants to introduce him to a friend of hers to see how they get along. i'd like to see that.

clip and alex agree

2022-03-29T11:40:00.000-05:00

it seems both clip and alex agree that the security commotion we've been seeing lately is in reaction to some terror threats. it's strange though 'cause the alert levels have not gone up during the security elevations.
trish thinks they're paranoid. i know clip is but i don't know alex well enough to say he's paranoid.

trish and i are going out tonight to make up for saturday. i'm taking the day off tomorrow and i'm going to get drunk. i need to ease the pain from my bruises. they still hurt.

clip's investigation

2022-03-28T07:50:00.000-05:00

clip has been looking into what the recent security commotions here and in la have been about. alex connected with me yesterday afternoon and filled me in on what was going on on saturday in la-la land. i was with clip at the time and let him know. clip started scraping his sources to find out why there were security elevations for short periods of time. it's something the fnb won't report so clip has to turn to his sources for the info.

i'm still hurtin' from the weekend. trish is coming over to hang out with me for the day. that'll make me feel better. it'll keep my mind off what happened.
i have lots of work to do today. i got a new client last week. it's mostly scanning. boring.
i have one cid mod to do today. my first in a long time. i think i'll blow the cash from that on a good friday night.

it happened again

2022-03-26T12:21:00.000-05:00

this time i was hurt pretty badly.
i just got home from the hospital. being a full volunteer has it's advantages. i'm in for examination as soon as i get there. i show my card and i'm next in line.
i'm ok other than some bumps and bruises.
clip says he was with me on friday night. he said i just got up and left around 9pm without explanation. he followed me until i went into the same nightclub as before. he said he waited for an hour or so but had to leave due to increasing security.
i have no recollection of what happened until i got up this morning. i was hurtin'.

i talked to trish. i was supposed to meet her saturday morning and we were going to go downtown shopping and to have dinner later on. i was a no show and she couldn't connect with me. she said i was online but her requests for connections were denied. she said it was like connecting to a computer with a firewall. that brought up the question why she's connecting to computers with firewalls. she said she'd explain later.

i've got to find out what's happening.

a show of force

2022-03-21T08:34:00.000-05:00

trish, clip and i were sitting downtown having coffee yesterday after dinner. we saw a bit of a commotion out the window. we were sitting right by the window and we could see up above the streets. there were several surveillance drones closing in close to the coffee shop. all of a sudden conventionally armed security came out of nowhere. they pretty much swarmed the street in front of the cafe we were in and just stood there on guard.
we weren't able to see if they apprehended someone. we couldn't really see why they were there at all. clip was losing his mind. he got up and calmly walked into the washroom by the back door of the cafe. i knew if he bolted i would see him later on or today sometime.
fifteen minutes later the security was gone but the surveillance drones remained. i went into the washroom where clip was hiding in a stall. i let him know the commotion was over. we left and walked clip home. trish and i went back to my place and we fooled around while she tried to show me how to place images and thoughts into people's heads.
an interesting evening to say the least.

it works!

2022-03-19T08:49:00.000-05:00

i got the straight to satellite reciever/transmitter to work! i had to do a lot of fiddling around with it this past weekend but i got it tuned up. trish was a bit upset that i was spending more time with it than i was with her but i had to get it done.
as i was tuning it i would constantly be connecting and disconnecting to test it. every little while trish would see me testing it and she would place an image in my mind to try to distract me. it worked but i had to keep working on what i was doing.
it's amazing how she not only places images in my mind but she'll place her vivid memories in specific areas of my mind. that not only distracts me metally but it does do physical things to me. it is my mind being stimulated after all and my body reacts. i've tried a few times to have the control with connections that she does but i just can't do it. i don't know how she does.

today i'm going to lean back in my chair, scan for latent io and do nothing. i'm looking forward to it.

it's alive (i think)

2022-03-16T07:59:00.000-05:00

i tried my straight to satellite connection and i think it worked. i connected with trish and after i tried it she said she got a weird connection from me. she could tell it was from me but she couldn't tell what i was doing.
i've got a lazy day with just a bit of scanning to do and only one cid mod so i'll have lots of time to work on my new toy.

girlfriend?

2022-03-14T08:12:00.000-05:00

well i think i've got a girlfriend. i've been spending a lot of time with trish. clip likes her so that's good. it's always good when your close friends like the girl you're with.

alex has been filling me in on his views and giving me some info to look into. they're similar views as clip's but he doesn't come off as an angry protester bent on disagreeing with anything reported on the fnb.
usually i take what's reported on the fnb with a grain of salt but it's laid out and done in such a way that makes it good to watch or connect to. but i'm sure it's all orchestrated that way.

one of the things that's been taking up some of my time and competing with my time with trish is a new device i think i've got working. it's a small phone sized communicator that will take my cid connections and direct them straight to satellite. right now my cid will connect to the nearest node and go from there to anywhere. in doing so my connections can be tracked and therefor i can be tracked to within a block or so. with this new device i'm going to try this weekend, i can connect to a satellite and by doing so i can be tracked to a state.
i don't want to sound like clip but i don't like knowing every time i connect someone knows where i am. and i know they keep logs. it's part of being a volunteer.

terror alert is down today. we're all still trying to find out who blew up the office of terrorism countermeasures and the intelligence, surveillance and reconnaissance service.
the more they talk about the office of terrorism countermeasures the more it sounds like an old policy started by bush jr. attack them first before they attack you (even if you don't know they're going to attack). so the countermeasures part of the office may be the wrong word to use.
government. can't live with them...

it happened again

2022-03-12T07:33:00.000-05:00

i woke up this morning not knowing what i did this weekend.
i was with clip and connected to alex when i blacked out. clip said i got up and said i had to leave. alex said he just lost connectivity. it was around 9 friday night.
clip said he followed me out partly because we were at my apartment and partly because he wanted to see where i was going. i'd done it once before when i was with him and he couldn't make head nor tails of it.
he told me we walked downtown and didn't say anything to each other. i went into a night club and he was denied entrance with no reason. weird.
alex said he couldn't connect with me and gave up after trying a few times. i connected with him this morning but he didn't have any info to give me other than that.
thsi is really starting to get on my nerves. especially since trish was trying to connect with me all weekend too. she thought i might have turned my cid off and tried e-mailing me.

we're also on alert this morning. no reason as to why but security is high. clip won't leave his apartment.

confirmed rumours?

2022-03-09T08:51:00.000-05:00

i hate to say this but the rumours may be true. i connected with alex yesterday after he e-mailed me with his cid ip. he gave me some seemingly reliable information on the rumours of home grown terrorism. the reason i hate to say it is because when clip tells me these things i roll my eyes. i know clip well and i've come to take his paranoia and anti-anything rederick with a grain of salt. so to have it come from a complete stranger makes me feel a bit bad.
trish has also expressed concerns about the latest attacks being carried out by westerners.
maybe one day we'll know.

speaking of trish, i really really like her. she's been showing me some of the things she can do with her cid and her connections. it's amazing! and taking a page from clip i get these strange thoughts that she may be controlling my emotions so i'll like her more. she can do weird things in my head, with my emotions. i like it though.

what's new?

2022-03-06T08:32:00.000-05:00

i haven't felt like blogging much in the past few days but i guess i should catch up here.

i've been hanging out with trish a lot. she's shown me more things she can do with her cid and how she can connect with me and make my brain do things. it's amazing.

clip has returned to his 'normal' self. he can come and go from his apartment as most of the security has returned to normal.
he's got all kinds of theories on who and why they attacked right down to individuals working in the buildings that were bombed. he gets his news from sketchy sites online, i get mine from the fnb and i try to come to some median between the two.
when i look further into what clip has been telling me i'll fill you in here.

i received another connection from the russian cosmonaut from one of the space stations.
this one was coherent and i asked who they were and what they wanted. i didn't get a name and they apologized for randomly connecting with me. he did tell me that he was a russian cosmonaut on the newest space station. that's about all he told me. weird.

clip ventures out

2022-03-01T08:56:00.000-05:00

clip came over last night. this time he brought food and coffee. trish was here.
security has lightened up a bit and curfew has been set back to normal.
he seems to be ok with trish and doesn't know what i'm talking about when i tell him he claimed she was working for 'them' after we first met her.

i've been wanting to tell clip about what trish can do with her connections but she doesn't want me too. i want him to experience it. too bad he can't.

well as rumors suggested the attackers from a couple of weeks ago were white guys. they're trying to identify them but they're having a hard time. covered faces and stealthy tactics are no match for high tech surveillance. they haven't released video on the fnb yet but clip said he saw a bit of one on some site he goes to. he said there wasn't much to see.

work is boring lately. if it weren't for the odd cid mod i would be going nuts.

white guys confirmed attackers

2022-02-27T09:33:00.000-05:00

i'm bored. i sat here scanning all day yesterday. i'll probably sit here all day today scanning. no cid mods for about a week now.

so it looks like it might have been 'white guys' that carried out the attacks a week or more ago. the fnb is reporting that a terrorist cell within the US has recruited americans to do their dirty work. there's all kinds of speculation as to why 'white guys' (sorry i keep doing that. it's me being a bit facetious. it's the fnb that portrays everyone as brown and white) would become terrorists. brain washing, monetary gain, religious reasons etc. are what they're debating online.
they haven't released images or video yet because it's a matter of national security. that could mean anything. the perpetrators, the method, the locations... anything can be a matter of national security.
i'll have to go and see clip and ask him what his alternative news sources are saying about it. maybe he'll venture out today and come over here.

friday at clip's

2022-02-25T13:56:00.000-05:00

i talked to clip today. we were over at his place just talking and having a drink when i unexpectedly got up and left. i told him i had to go and i just left. it was about 10pm.

i told him about trish and that i've been hanging out with her a lot. he didn't seem to care even though he thought she was working for them. he probably doesn't remember saying it. ha!!
i'm going back over to his place tonight. i'll bring him dinner and coffee.

it happened again

2022-02-25T10:13:00.000-05:00

i was out at clip's place last night and i woke up here. i'll call clip and ask if he knows anything.

trish: unbelievable

2022-02-23T09:29:00.000-05:00

i can't believe what trish showed me last night.
she told me awhile ago she had some control over her emotional centers. she connected with me and showed me a few images. that's easy. any volunteer can do that. then she 'placed' a couple of images in my emotional centers. it was weird. it was dream like. i've never had that happen before.
she asked me what i thought and i asked her how she did that. sending images into some one's brain is simple. it's part of what having a wired brain and a cid is all about and what it's for, but to 'place' images is something i didn't think was possible.
she told me to relax and placed an image in my pleasure center. i could 'feel' it there. i'm fully aware of where my emotional centers are. i need to be to mod other people's cid's for stimming.
after she placed the image there she did something, i don't know what, that sent me on a high that was truly euphoric. for a few seconds i lost all awareness of anything else.
when she stopped she asked me what i though. it was incredible! i've never felt that way before. i've stimmed that center of my brain before but not like that.
then she asked if she could do it again. this time she did whatever it is she does and then she touched my arm. while in a euphoric state and at the moment she touched my arm she did something else. she stimmed my brain where my touch receptors tell me i'm being touched. it was tantric. it was amazing.
i asked her to tell me more about how she knows how to do that but she said she had to go. she said she'll tell me another time.

trish

2022-02-22T14:42:00.000-05:00

trish connected with me after lunch. she says she wants to come over tonight and show me something but she wouldn't tell me what it was.

ok. i really like her.

home grown terrorism

2022-02-22T09:58:00.000-05:00

so it seems the terrorists that attacked the oil patch in alberta canada were 'white'. the media seems surprised. they're always showing images of dark skinned men when they name and finger 'bad guys'.
there was a camera recording an automated operation in fort mcmurray on some huge piece of equipment that caught the planting of the explosive device. the video was leaked and now it's spreading like wild fire. i wonder if the government buildings in the US were attacked by 'white guys' and that's why they haven't released footage or images of it yet. there's no way it wasn't caught by at least one camera.
the buildings that were bombed were the office of terrorism countermeasures and the intelligence, surveillance and reconnaissance service (isrs).

anyway, clip still hasn't left his apartment since saturday. there will be military personnel out on patrol for at least another week. i wonder if he'll venture out before then. i'll keep bringing him coffee for as long as he needs me too. what are friends for?

i haven't heard from trish since coffee yesterday. usually she connects with me every couple of hours or so. she told me she's turning on her cid a lot more than she used to because of me. i think she likes me as much as i like her.

lock-down fun

2022-02-21T07:45:00.000-05:00

i think the entire country is on lock-down. probably canada too. i can't believe the security. random id checks by well armed military personnel and curfew is extremely strict. because of this clip won't leave his apartment so i have to go over there. if he gets id'ed he'll go straight to jail. it's been an interesting couple of days. his apartment is a dump. not that mine is any better, it's just my dump.

i met up with trish yesterday and we had coffee. she wanted to come with me to clip's place but i made up an excuse as to why she couldn't come. he'd flip if i showed up at his door with her. he warns me once a day since i first met up with her that he thinks she's working for 'them'. when i ask who 'them' is he just replies with a loud 'you know!'

there doesn't seem to be any news on the terrorists and/or the perpetrators of the attacks on saturday. i thought for sure with the government building attacks there'd be tons of video and photos in the news. you can't get within a mile of a government building without at least having your picture taken.
eight hundred and sixty eight people dead. many more injured. i'm still in a bit of shock. it's almost as big as the 10th anniversary attacks in 2011. some people think this is a 20th anniversary attack, just 6 months late, but there are no groups or factions publicly taking responsibility. none. mind you i get most of my news from the federal news bureau and we all know what kind of news that is, so i cross reference it with the stuff clip finds. i try to make sense of whatever may fall in between the two.
i'll have to keep watching and see how this turns out.

holy security

2022-02-19T08:30:00.000-05:00

i went out for a coffee to stretch my legs a bit. you should see the security. usually it's just a few military patrols with rail guns and few (focused energy weapons). they've got military vehicles and troops with rail guns and the old m16's all over the place. none of them bothered me but they were everywhere.
surveillance drones seem to be above all the major streets.
i'm staying in the rest of the day.

it happened again

2022-02-19T06:50:00.000-05:00

it happened again.
i woke up too early this morning feeling like crap. not hung over crap but worn out crap.
i checked my e-mail and the news. the news is all about the attacks. three simultaneous attacks on saturday. two in the states and one in canada.
the one in canada i understand. there was a large explosion in fort mcmurray alberta. it's the oil. after the 10th anniversary attacks in 2011 we've been getting most of our oil from canada.
the two attacks in the states i don't get. both were government buildings and both will have been well recorded. there's little doubt that the people carrying out the attacks will be identified. aerial surveillance will have seen them come and go.
i'm going to keep my eye on this throughout the day to see how this shapes up.

i got e-mails from both trish and clip. both wondering where i was and what i was doing for the weekend. i'll have to get back to them later this morning and see what they did.

paranoia and yesterday afternoon

2022-02-16T12:11:00.000-05:00

clip is wacko! he thinks trish is working for 'them' and he told me not to connect with her again. he figures anyone who turns off their cid is only turning it on to collect information on other volunteers and to get updates from 'them'. he still hasn't told me who 'them' is. he's starting to get on my nerves today. i haven't told him about yesterday afternoon yet.

i connected with trish just before clip got here. she told me right in the middle of talking to her i politely excused myself, got up and walked out. no explaination when she asked. i might see her tonight and ask her more about it.

it happened again

2022-02-16T09:37:00.000-05:00

i was out with trish yesterday afternoon and then i woke up to my alarm here.
i'm not sure what happened but i'll have to connect with trish if she's on and ask her if she knows what happened. i hope she does.

clip e-mailed me this morning and asked me about trish. he's paranoid. he says i shouldn't have told her what i do. he thinks she works for 'them'. i'll have to get him over here and talk to him about it. i know he's paranoid but it's always good to have someone keep you in check when you're dealing with a hot chick.

trish. wow!

2022-02-14T08:54:00.000-05:00

i went for coffee with trish monday afternoon. i was worried about going to meet her 'cause i didn't know why she wanted to meet me. she asked about what i do in my 'spare time' and that made me nervous.

the first thing i did was ask about the stim house we stayed in on friday night. she filled me in. it's a place owned by a friend of hers. a bit of a party house.
then she quickly moved the conversation to focus on me. i glossed over what i did at first. i told her i knew a bit about modifying cid's and i told her a bit about the modifications i do on them. i wanted to know why she was asking.
she's a partial volunteer. she's had a cid mod to access her emotional centers. she used the mod for a bit here and there just to explore and see what she could do with it. after a few stims with pleasure and sadness she noticed she could almost do it herself with the cid turned off.
that brought 2 questions to mind. why does she turn off her cid and what does she mean she 'can do it herself.'
she told me she turns off her cid when she's not using it. if she's not scanning for information, connecting with someone, or stimming herself, it's off. i thought that was a bit weird. i haven't met anyone who turns off their cid unless they have to.
she told me she felt like she could stim her emotional centers herself and she felt like she had a unique insight on how and why we have emotions.
weird.
i switched the conversation and asked who did her mod and how much she paid to get it done. she said someones name i'd never heard before and she paid $400 for the mod. i told her i'd have done it for half that and told her to come to me if she ever wanted anything else done. i lied a bit. i would've done for a bit less but men say a lot of stupid things when sitting having coffee with an attractive woman.
we talked a bit more and i was contemplating asking her about my strange connection the other night, if she'd ever had one. i decided not to but i did ask if we could get together again sometime. she said how about now with a sparkle in her eye. woah. i wasn't sure how to take that at first but by the smirk on her face i knew.
she came back here and ended up hanging out all day in bed with me. other than the fact that i had to do twice as much work yesterday, it was awesome. i'll definitely be seeing her again.

the girl from friday night

2022-02-12T07:12:00.000-05:00

i received a connection from one of the girls we hung out with on friday night. she wanted to know more about what it is i do with the cid modifications. i wasn't sure what to tell her. i don't really publicize my work in this area. she told me clip told her about what i do so i gave her a little bit of info. she's quite interested and wants to meet with me to discuss it further. i'm a bit leary about meeting her 'cause i really don't know her but i'm going anyway.

i asked her about where we stayed on friday night. it felt like a stim house to me except it was a nicer than i had expected. she told me it was a stim house and that the stereotype of the stim house comes from the old drug havens where people would do drugs in a so called safe place. she told me stim houses are clean and the people in them are regular people doing illegal things.

anyway, i'm meeting her later today for coffee.

what a good weekend

2022-02-11T12:09:00.000-05:00

i got tons of work done on friday even though clip interupted me for an hour or so. most of the scanning i did was just boring stuff. nothing but scanning for most of the day.
later in the afternoon i had a couple of hardware jobs to do. both of them were volunteers who knew clip so i was comfortable doing them. i won't do a hardware job unless i know who or where the person comes from. i did one stim mod and one stim mod/upgrade.
stim mods are modifications to a volunteer's hardware that allows them more control over how they can stimulate the different emotional centers in their brains. this requires a quick scan similar to the scanning i do for junk io on servers to find the connections to their emotional centers. i add or modify some code in their cid's and they're ready to go.
the upgrade was a simple mod to access all ip addresses. not only will the volunteer be able to connect to ip addresses of other volunteers but they'll be able to connect to anything with an ip address. this can be a bit dangerous if you don't know the person. i don't really know what they're intentions are seeing as anything with a chip has an ip address.

anyway i had some extra money for the weekend. we tripped the town and ended up staying with a couple of girls at what looked to be a stim house.

i'm going to sleep this day away.

clip's close call

2022-02-09T10:48:00.000-05:00

clip is here now. the other night when i got picked up for breaking curfew, he was chased for the same thing. he can't be caught 'cause he'll go straight to jail. he's freakin' out! i shouldn't laugh at him but i really want to. poor bastard.

i had to break from work to settle him down. work's boring today. too much scanning not enough stuff to do.
btw, my legit job is scanning servers for unused data. programs, scripts, logs, photos, holy crap the photos, and just junk io. when i find anything that hasn't been accessed in over a certain period of time specified by the client i delete it. it's an interesting job. sometimes i find stuff that keeps me from doing my work for hours. all this old stuff people used to upload and now they've forgotten about. i'm also amazed at what people used to put online in years past. i can't imagine what it must've been like surfing 20 years ago.

anyway, back to work. i gotta get clip outta here.

disturbing connection

2022-02-09T06:10:00.000-05:00

lats night i was jarred awake by a connection from someone. it was weird. usually a connection is solicited. this one wasn't. probably someone just scanning random ip addresses looking for a live ping.

a connection is kind of like a dream but it's much more vivid and real. a dream is surreal in that people and places aren't real and/or they can change in an instant. backgrounds and peripherals aren't always clear. a connection has people and places that don't change like that (unless the person you're connected to makes them change). it's almost like watching a high definition video.

the connection i got last night that woke me up was someone having trouble on one of the space stations. obviously i don't know which one but it seemed strange to me that a volunteer would be on a space station. whoever sent him or her up there must know they're a volunteer. and as such maybe they weren't a volunteer. i'll have to ask around about this one.
anyway, the person seemed to be struggling and there was no one else in view.

what a week so far

2022-02-08T07:20:00.000-05:00

i had a lot of work on monday. about 50/50 legit/not so legit.
tuesday we went out for dinner and a couple of drinks and met some girls.
after the bar closed we went and hung out in the park. before we realized it was after curfew. yeah. i got caught.

the first time i was in detention for being out after curfew i went through the standard procedure. couple of questions, iris scan and detention until the morning.
this time was a bit different. couple of questions, iris scan and then an interrogation. this interrogation lasted all day. all day. they threw me back into detention until this morning. so i spent 2 days in detention for being out past curfew once.
the interrogation was weird. lots of questions about me and what i do. i told them i'm a regular geek. programming, scanning etc. i didn't tell them anything about what i do with hardware. i didn't want to arouse suspicion especially since i was being interrogated for something as simple as being out past curfew. they seemed a bit hard on me for that.

being in detention meant i couldn't get access. the whole building is shielded. i couldn't try to msg clip. but now i have to find him. i hope he didn't get picked up.

clip's useless

2022-02-04T21:15:00.000-05:00

i talked to clip today. he doesn't know anything. at least he doesn't know where i was yesterday.

btw, for those of you reading this that have not had the pleasure of meeting clip, he's a bit weird. i don't know if it's the drugs or just the way he is.
he was a partial volunteer. i say was 'cause he clipped his antenna. hence his knick name.
when he found out they were actually paying people to get wired he got pissed off. we were volunteers. i don't know what his problem with it was but he still rambles on about big industry and the government and blah, blah, blah...
anyway, he's a federal fugitive now. clipping his antenna made him a criminal under the contract he signed.
with that said i don't have to tell you he's a blast to hang out with. totally entertaining.

it happened again

2022-02-04T12:40:00.000-05:00

i woke up this morning not sure where i was last night. i don’t think i was drunk or high. i feel fine. i’m going to have to call clip and see if he was with me and can fill me in.

i checked the news today. same old crap. possibility of a terrorist attack is high even though it hasn't happened in almost 11 years. the 20th anniversary of the first big attack passed without incident but the powers that be won't let us become complacent again. ehh... what do i care.